I realized after my last post that mouthing off is a lot easier on Facebook or Twitter.
Like telling jokes at a pub as opposed to stand-up comedy, there’s the comfort of a large group of participants and (at worst) of a potential gaffe being quickly swept under the rug by whatever people say next. As much as I want this blog to be a conversational one, the truth is that it’s my blog rather than a single profile among many interacting profiles…and there’s a new finality in hitting the “Publish” button. Like stand-up, everything I say has the inherent admission that “Yep, I really just said that!”
Back in the days of Facebook it was easy to be strident and loud-mouthed, because the constant flow from other people created an illusion of transience. That illusion is gone, and it’s feeding into all my lovely insecurities about being misunderstood, or about my thoughts being all stupid and one-sided and horribly expressed. Oh, you didn’t know? I have writerly foibles. Aren’t they charming?
So here’s yet another reason for me to be here! Besides keeping in touch with all the real-life people that I miss way too much, I actually have to get over my paranoid fears of writing things that are Not Transient. Plus, I’ve been told that getting words on to paper (so to speak) is the only way to actually become good at writing. So hurrah! Here I am and here I shall stay.